unpredictable

yesterday's news about the girl who passed away in a car accident was my sec sch mate's sister. The couple was also from my sec sch.
Its a terrible news to her family and love ones.
i feel so sad and even worse when i think of bf driving at speed of 130.
I'm not sure if jx did drive fast right b4 the accident occur but i'm sure he didn't want this to happen either. i'm not close with them but i hope he is able to move on some time later. and also to m and her family.
the pain of losing a child is no less than stabbing yourself in your heart.

i feel kind of guilty as well. boy and i always went out at night and he drove quite fast too. ok, even 120 sounds very fast to me now. and i always go 'faster faster' :(
i told my dad about the news ytd, expecting him to warn me, which he did.
ok, i'm very emotional and easily affected. i imagined if this happen to me, i will be the most unfilial one.

cause i've yet to be a uni graduate which my dad wants, i've yet to get my first proper pay and give my parents $. i want to get a television for my parent's room. i want to get branded stuffs for my sisters cause they always can't bear to spend their money on it (i think this applies to me too). i love to buy great presents for ppl that i love because not only it makes both parties happy, we can feel that we are being loved also. nothing is more important than staying happy in life. happy makes us a healthier person too.

ok, don't think too much already.

cherish :)