being alive is really tiring

i wonder how many actually feels the same as me. probably its just me, feeling very tired cause i'm not doing things that i like and what i want to do. have been doing things that makes people happy.. i'm also happy in a way, but i feel so aimless at times. i don't really feel appreciated and don't know what am i doing. no aims/goals. why am i not dancing?? its not going to happen.. the one thing that i want to do now is to travel, but i can't as well. :(