i'm starting to feel sleepy..
cause i had been sleeping early for the past few days.. and getting up early..
but i don't don't don't feel like going to bed now cause when i wake up tmr.. i can only study.. cause everybody is studying.. but i'm really bored bored bored..

maybe i've said many times..
cause i'm not studying what i like..
the coming exams that i'm studying for is just something that i want to faster get it over and done with.
i'm not interested in going to understand it that much..if i can, i will memorise.
and i thought u know. sigh

i'm so envy of some of my friends who are able to do what they really like. at the same time, i'm happy for them for being able to do so.

much determination are really needed to do well in something that u don't like. and yes, to do it well.
if i graduate smoothly in 3 years, i will be happy that i got a degree and not because i've got a degree in my course.

as time pass, i feel that i am getting further and further away from what i want to do. age and responsibilities grow and they make you unable to fulfill your dreams.
maybe i really didn't try hard enough. timid? or have i lost my confidence.. ?
i'm only always talking about it and not grabbing the chance or finding my own route.
so i actually deserve it too.