On the 2nd day of CNY,
went to my grandfather's place without bf..cause its too early for him..
my mum says that you have to come with us next year.. HEARD THAT ?

following next, went to a uncle's hse then to my ahyi's hse..
i was not comfortable at all at both of these places..
b e c a u s e... of DOGS! -damn it-
this time round, that dog crawled on my leg..
i was freaked out..totally..
i couldn't really run away from that dog at my uncle's house cause we are not that close..and it would be really embarrassing if i scream...i wanted to scream badly at that moment seriously!
haha, then i ran like nobody's business and scream~ when i'm at my ahyi's hse..
i hope i won't see that dog anymore next year... -phew-

last destination on 'chu er' is always at dama's house...
i reached home at around 2pm...
the lion dance came at around 5..
played cards..
dinner...
yu sheng..
back to cards
and bf stayed over..haha, he slept at that idoit's room..
oh, maybe thats why he got bad luck...


..CHU SAN..
only got up in the afternoon..
dressed up and went to meet gee, yan and py..
dinner at heeren and acid bar after that..
i finally tried magners cider..
i still prefer strongbow though..


-sigh-

i went dama's house ytd..and we all decided to go over to my sis's house for mj and cards..
but that bastard came over as well..so i didn't play..
and i left early and walked home myself.. the sight of him just pisses me off.
i feel angry and upset about it..
so, instead of going home, i went pioneer mall myself and sat there stoning...
i wrote a lot of things, kind of like venting all my anger on that poor foolscap paper..
went home at ard 1+am..
i left cause i feel extremely 'bu shuang' to see him and hear his voice.
i feel lonely at times and i blame him for all these..
u might think that i'm childish..but i don't agree..
because there are cases where it gets too serious and that its unforgivable.
i have to be strong and endure all these..i have to since i had chose this path.
i'll be stronger than u, both physically and mentally.


anyway, last update for today..
i went to catch a movie with zhang & kevin today at jp..
nice :)
i've not seen them for soooo long!
i'm not sure when will i get to meet jp and kl lo..
take care :)

and also, darling KAY..
i understand how u are feeling right now totally!
take a break... before the next attempt ?
its ok :) you didn't lose anything..u just haven't got what u want..
we will bring u lots of laughter tmr!