-devastated-

good news: i'm able to get the $200 back from the customer..
thank you so much.

bad news: car's instalment. $400.

went canopy last night..
beer is killing me..
supper
slept at 4+am

and i always hate getting up early after alcohol. knock me out please..
heart beating fast, as if an asthma attack is coming up
how i wish you were here.

bread + coffee + ruffles now.
waiting, expecting something..
dinner tonight with relatives.. i don't feel like going already:(

i hope i'm that strong girl that ppl see me as...
but i'm so not.
i'm way over-dependent
its scary