i had to be mindful, be careful when i talk to you.
why?
i just see a gap in between us.

you are very nice..
you brought me all the laughter...
but sadly, tears and pain as well.

many a times, i really appreciate you for everything you had done.
i wanted to tell you so soon..
many joyous occasions, days we had together.
-driving fast on the highway
-sending me to and fro work, school
-having nice meals together
-travel together
-celebrating the various occasions
.
.
.
etc etc etc
but before i could, we had to be like this again.
you left me at the back to walk on my own w strangers even when i don't feel well
u look pissed, ignoring me..
u think that when girl's cry, they are threatening the guys..

i don't think i am a super emo person. but u made me seems like one.
all my reactions, how i feel, how i think is what most people will.
but you don't allow me to reveal all these. cause we think differently..

telling u how i feel is of no use..so i might rather post it here. anyway, u won't see it.

i shouldn't interrupt the way u want to live, its ur life
i shall not comment on your actions, because thats you
i won't correct you as it is not wrong to you..
i won't stop you from anything that you want to do..
maybe its a better way of loving you that you would prefer..

i think i am being very irritating,
calling you everyday..
texting you...
meeting u..
and i don't know how you feel
what if i am gone one day?

i wonder if you will get sick and tired one day..

i realise that i have no 100% trust in anything, even myself.
ever since .... idk.

its been 3.5years, did i fail in understanding you ?

i.miss.u
i know we care, i'm sure
we will say we do love..
but the way we love..i'm not sure if we are doing the correct way..
:'(