sometimes i just feel so meaningless,
doing many things that are actually not what i had wanted.
instead, i'm doing it because i had to and i am left with no choice.
in either way, i had no control over it.
doing it because its my role to do so (wth?) i should do it?
since when did it become like this and y ?
i feel so numb sometimes and would just do whatever ppl ask me to do. thats me ?
i don't fight for my rights. just like if u serve me a spoilt drink, i would just not eat it and not make a fuss about it, asking u to compensate me another one.
i thought i can forget about all these but sometime, it doesn't
it actually bothers me and the only way i found to not to think about any of this is to keep myself busy.

:(