ahhhhhhhhhhhh

STOP me..

am very very very very very TIRED
but i just can't stop. i don't know y. every week is pack with workss..
be it swissbake or DN.
i think i still don't dare to slp. yyyyyy
i'm so gonna die.

finally, i'm able to sit infront of the TV today before going np to see peiyi's performance.
yet, i binge..thou i am so bloody tired. SHIT....this sucks!
you cannot assume the amount of food i had in that 1/2 hour.

-opera cake
-blackforest cake
-4 shrimp rolls
-18 wheat biscuits
-20pcs of hello panda
-an apple

ahhh. and then i really really feel like vomiting
but i can't get anything out.
and intestines are like not digesting it well..
-killme-

the concert was awesome..
nice one..
the DANCE!
it did manage to make me feel like moving my whole body, sway here and there with lots of big movements...somersaults..turns.. wooohhoo.. the excitement!

i've decided to go Finland for attachment!
must lie to my dad that its compulsory..if not i think he won't want me to go. opps, i haven't bring this topic up yet.
but when i told my mum, her reaction was like OK..like happy than anyone ?
of course...,cause she does not need to pay for me! -bloodyhell- and she don't look or sound like she intend to pay for me.
reason is because the 1st bloody thing she say is to ask me not to anyhow spend money and save up those money that i earn during the holidays..
futhurmore... she is the one who ask me to lie to my dad alright..
(see, i say talking to her will die.. that explains y i feel so frustrated to see her at hm)

-screamssssssssssssssssssssss inside-

i read this book recently out of curiousity - "power sleep"
cause i don't know y myself that i am able to go without slp for near 3 days..
the book is writen by this guy who thinks that slping is a waste of time .(this is what my 2nd sis told me in the past as well. thats y i think so too as well)
so, this guy attended a talk and realise that this is not true and started to do analysis, blablabla..and came up with this book eventually..

i have not read finish..
till now, i only know that not slping or insufficient slp would shorten your lifespan/deteriote your memory and many more...wait till i finish the book then i will comment :)

-complicated-