maybe he's right, no more 'dunno' for me.

should really learn how to explain and face up to the facts.


had been running away from everything i could since yrs back and probably thats y i could hear comments such as
-no attitude problem
-no temper
-no anger
-great tolerance
and to recall, i guess the worse 1 was 'cruel'? cause i presented myself as if i wasn't feeling anything & wasn't showing any emotion.
thats the reason y some of u can see me going expressionless..


seriously, if this could solve anything, i will still prefer running away.


its time to realise that its not always appropriate to use this solution.
it still hurts me when i think of them asking me how come i didn't cry during that time when anyone who met that problem will surely drown by their tears.
that incident breaks our friendship..and sad to say, it didn't happen to just 1 case.
if i bother to explain, to share and not keep to myself, maybe no such things will happen..
anyway, its too late cause i choose this way.


its sooo dumb to not do the correct thing when i know what is right & wrong.
this is perhaps a problem but i seriously didn't take it as 1 cause i thought it only bothers me and i'm so used to taking things individually without anyone giving me a hand. i didn't take into consideration that it is affecting the others.


i should be glad now cause i'm not taking it alone.

he brought this friend to meet me that night after i had a dunno-what-to-do day, after i force myself to run rounds & rounds around the track and after i ran out of tears.

i'm so surprised by his doings and appreciated it.

He bought me dinner.. but too late, gastric pain attacked me first..and i seriously feel like dying. i think i believe that feeling down is bad for health.

though -choy- but i'm so not surprised if i ever will get severe gastrics problem at the rate i'm going.

Rise & shine, mac's big breakfast as usual. at first there is no more Big BREakfast which i really feel like eating and he managed to get it. :)

We played scrabbles in the afternoon. the 1st game took us more than 1hr all because of him!!

he still lose eventually...

The 2nd round..

cause he don't want to lose again, finally, i allow him to put that..and i seriously don't know what type of scrabbles i'm playing already..

thanks for being there..

dearest lovelies, i know u guys care & thats y bother to say all that .... :) -thank u too-

He took nearly 1 hr to get this done.....lousy but effort is being appreciated cause this is his first attempt in wrapping a present.

and this is what is inside.. from pulau hantu?? effort appreciated once again and please improve on ur mandarin. don't even know how to write "zai" !!!

-my choice B-

went np on thur which i think its great! i'm not refering to the sch but to the meet up with friends.. kl as usual, always make me throw my face infront of others. nvm, i'm used to it.

anyway, np is really very very very hot.. i actually sweat there..and i think i didn't sweat at all in sp before? lunch should consists of "fat fat" jabian,"tall tall" kevin, "short short" weifen and the 2 buyaolians "handsome" kai lun & "pretty" me. -PUI- but in the end only wf,kl & me. its still nice :) and wf & me went driving together after that.

DRIVING!! test date is getting nearer & nearer and i'm still at stage 2! U-turning is not fun & easy huh..i nearly bang onto the kerb la..-phew- close shave-